Well, outside of some other projects here and there, I’ve finally finished work on one painting that has been sitting on my art board for quite some time (ok, let’s be honest, 2 years!) This piece is titled “Isolated Chaos”. Originally, through my sketches, my plan was to create a piece using a medium I don’t use all that often, gouache, and to put several different elements in it that tend to be a struggle for me. Stone, building structures, multiple overlapping forms, etc. It began as just a frivolous piece to experiment with and let myself loose on. Not over thinking.
However, as I began sketching, mind-mapping and creating buildings, I realized that certain themes for the buildings kept coming up naturally. Particular buildings held hope, or ideas or even confusion and were in and of themselves, isolated. The elements around them only reflecting those ideas. The isolation of these buildings on a small and delicate mass of earth felt like a reflection of my individuality.
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So, by the time my sketch reached the final paper, buildings had attained more depth and clarity as to why they were there and elements began to fall in naturally as I went ahead and gave myself permission to not over think, but just work.
The first building in the foreground represented the present for me. Small and not much to look at, but making the best despite its form and its almost claustrophobic surrounding elements. A brightened exterior and details such as the hanging plant show that despite its surroundings and modest look, it’s doing its best with where it is at and still trying to grow and make itself known, in any way possible.
Yet, the large stones, while in a way create a feeling of security, keep it locked in and don’t even allow the door to be fully accessible. A mailbox in the front lawn, filled with scattered mail that never went anywhere, reminded me of the feeling of miscommunication and not being able to keep up with standard expectations. A railway track runs closely from behind but quickly ends. Showing a hope, though shortsighted and ultimately unable to progress further or to escape.
The next two buildings which are on a similar level, are a skyscraper and a farmhouse. Both to me represented competing desires. One to live in a city and the other the country. The skyscraper is considerably stunted and crowded back. Often as I see the city. With plenty of busyness and modern energy which I enjoy, but with limitations. Yet the largeness of the city and “success” seem alluring. The farmhouse, meanwhile has the comforts of openness and growth. It also communicates a sort of peace and calm to me. The land producing much. Yet isolated and separate. The farmhouse large, yet empty feeling.
And finally, the house on the hill. There’s a lightness, openness and hope in it for me. It’s not overwhelming, yet not suffering from some of the limitations as the others. It’s set for potential. Whether it’s a home, a shop like my mom and I had always talked about or both. It’s the only building with a sign of life, with the smoke rising from the chimney and birds above. There’s natural growth around it and the room for growth structurally. Connected to the others, yet its own identity entirely.
The greenness and natural growth around everything throughout the painting brings a sense of peace and that hope and contentment can be found anywhere. However, things like broken electrical wires, tracks that go nowhere, a leaking pipe and the disproportionate forms showing that things are not all functioning or in their proper place or alignment.
So, I’ll end that there. I’m terrible at ending outside of wanting to awkwardly say, “ta-da!!”
Now I’ll leave the piece up to you. Maybe it says something different to you or nothing at all. Either way, it exists and is finally finished.
And yes, Sherlock approves this painting. I know you were concerned. He just wanted to let you know.
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